my rainbow vector bliss.
this is : lala.blogspot.com
rainnnnnbow vector.
all glen's idea.
=3
glen's awesome at advising. haha.
so, I just got back from camp, & boy, it was fun.
so, I decided to make a new skin. ;]
not sure if this will score but yeah.
navigations on top. =)
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
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depressed
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don't know if anyone would be reading today's post... but i don't know why i just felt like blogging today... i haven't blogged for a while... actually i dun think i am even supposed to be online blogging now... i just finished my Maths Extension Paper... and it explains why i am super duper depressed. I was like ??? when i saw the paper... the exact word: shocked and stunned. I dun noe how to tell my mother when she asks... she has cooked all the good food for me this week because it is my exam week. I dun noe why i didnt know how to do the questions just now... and i did revise maths yesterday night and this morning before the paper.... but non of those information that registered in my brain was tested today. Tomorrow's another Maths Paper... i dun noe if i can still maintain my first considering how depressed I am... I only know that if i don't get first... i am probably stupid, but most importantly I would let my mum down. Actually I don't understand why asians view aussies as stupid... cos no matter how 'smart' I try to be, there would always be someone there to remove me of my place to get first... I am worth no place in this world I guess... sometimes I wonder if I would see a rainbow when I stare out into the sky... but well we know that's impossible... Maybe God's angry at me... for i dun noe what reason, but i only know that if I can't do well for my exams, i am worth nothing...
God I pray this day, I might be selfish, but i really need, luck and wisdom, most importantly, Lord, grant me peace. And at this moment I just wanna cont'd to pray for those kids who don't even get a chance to school. Lord, teach me to be thankful, teach me to be the best that I can be. Amen