RE-LINK!!!

Time flies and I've been back in Sydney for slightly more than a week. I came back just in time to attend my college's High Achievers Assembly for those who graduated in 2008. I saw my name craved on the board of the hall with my Intercultural Understanding Prefect status, it was hard not for me to smile deep down inside me. And yeah, we (about 8 of the 16 invited turned up) had to sit on stage. I'm quite used to standing up on stage and saying my speech as a prefect, but sitting on stage was really weird. It was great to see my friends again... some changed (like hair cut etc.) and some still looked the same.

Here's a photo... I have no idea why I look so weird (my smile was hilarious.)



12 Feb was when I started my first Jap class which would cont'd for another 15 weeks whereby I'll be having Jap classes every Thursday night from 7pm to 9pm. The first lesson was rather overwhelming and I seriously hope I'll get the hang of it soon. xLoLx. Before Jap class, our clique went for lunch together before Pamela and Jia Yun went house hunting and Ika, Deirdre and I just walked around the city area...



It was great to catch up wif friends and good times spend together are always the most precious. I love my family and friends and thank God for giving them to me because I always have friends to rely on whenever I need them. Happy BELATED vday to everyone... including those with lovers and those single like me. I spent my vday watching dramas and they are always my best company... hehe... drama rocks!~

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone   While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Death
Commitment
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我最近眼泪多了。。。
上星期就考完试了，或许就是那无所事事的日子让我想太多了。。。
我好想好想可以赶快回新加坡。。。有我家人的关怀，有我朋友的陪伴。。。
我不想再转牛角尖了。。。
我。。。
到底是什么？
我。。。
为什么存在？
我。。。
会变成什么？
我不是钻石，我不是泥土，我是一个毫不起眼的陶瓷。。。
不管怎么样，都不会发光发热。
人类实在是很矛盾的。
我很想回新加坡，但是我更担心新加坡的家人和朋友没有时间见我。
我想做一只鸟，一只自由自在飞翔的小鸟，想到那就到哪。

主啊，我请您让我快快乐乐的，这样我在能把我的欢乐分散给其他人。阿门。

Name: Sabrina
Date: 10/25/2008
Colorgenics Number: 61327540

Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Conditions are rather confusing at this time. You would like to involved with a particular person or a particular situation butyou are holding back. You find it difficult to make a decision.

You are feeling full of uncertainty and worrying over what you consider as missed opportunities. This is causing considerable stress and tension. You feel that there must be more to life than the constant pressures and anxieties - that surely life must hold far more opportunities than that which it has to date presented to you. You sincerely believe that there must be a simpler way to tap life's hidden recourses and should you be able to find that way - you could achieve your hearts desire. It's the not knowing 'how' that is affording you the constant worry. You are constantly probing and seeking - trying to ensure that at all times you are on your guard against missing any opportunity. 'Enough is enough'. You are anxious to avoid further setbacks. You are strenuously trying to make sure that you will not be overlooked and you badly need security.

There is an inherent fear that you may be prevented from achieving the things you want. This activates your subconscious desire for peace of mind and mental security. It is increasingly obvious to you that the environment that you are in is not conducive to your well-being and so you are seeking fresh fields - somewhere free of conflict where you can RELAX and THINK.

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I know I said I was not going to blog until my exams were over but I really have to...

I had Maths tuition from about 5 -9pm tonight... then I had some dinner and decided to chuck the garbage in the garbage room... Usually I'll unlock the door and I'll still be able to get back into the apartment without the key, but tonight my mum went out and she locked the top one as well, therefore I was unable to return to the apartment...

I decided to go knock on some doors of my neighbours (I am not a neighbour person but well) and finally this door opened and a guy was waiting for his friend at the lift. So I gathered my courage and asked if I could borrow his phone to call my mum, neither did I expect my mum to have turned off her phone. His friend came and they offered me to go to their place but I rejected at first. I sat outside my apartment and was hoping that my mum would return home soon. Meanwhile I managed to remove nail polish off two of my fingers which I was meant to have done much earlier... lol... then their door opened again, they were expecting another friend... this time I asked if I could text my mum and they persuaded me to enter their house... Weird though I did not feel fear or anything... I was rather relaxed... I guess that is what is the case wif Aussies, they are friendly, really friendly, mind you, three of which were asians... (Oh there was 4 people in total, 2 couples)..

They introduced themselves to me but I only really got the name of this girl, she kept chatting wif me and making feel comfortable... Her name was Mel, from Thailand, she's nineteen and she's doing her foundation year at Taylor's College and she would probably go to University of Sydney which is where my first choice is. She offered me lemonade and stayed wif me the whole time before I managed to get back into my place. The asian guy was called Jake I think... he smokes, but he is alright, he lent me his phones... The only aussie guy was named Kair or smthing like that... he's a Chef, he showed us his video when he went sky-diving... He had a girlfriend back then when he was 22 who was a Japanese, and now his current girlfriend is a Korean... very friendly man... His girlfriend I think just came back from Melbourne because she had a luggage when she stepped into the house and Mel really wants to go to Melbourne. The asian guy went to bed first... then the aussie-korean couple went in too.

Mel stayed with me and we watched SAW... a pretty gross movie but well not too bad, rather interesting plot line with this Jigsaw guy attempting to 'play' with people's lives... Well Mel is planning to do psychology after her foundation (I think she is nearly done with it)... She has been here for one month and I think she dated the Jake guy for nine months if I didn't hear wrongly.

Then finally my mum rang the phone at 12am... It turned out that she didn't bring the phone out and she was home at 10.45pm... could tell she was freaking out when she couldn't find me the whole time... But well I got home after all... Next time I will never leave my house again without my keys, but if not for this experience I would not have been able to know this bunch of people, friendly and outgoing... now I have neighbours too!!!

Guess I am going to the library bright early tomorrow morning cos mum is having friends over from Malaysia and I decided to go to the library earlier to get some studying done... Let's be honest here, I have done NO studying this hols despite the fact that we had physics study group... we mainly hang around studying of course, but none of which did actually get into my brain... So I should seriously start before it really gets too late... This time next week I would be done with my first HSC paper... how scary...

I am going to prepare for tomorrow and set off to bed... Really need a good night rest from today.

Dear Lord, I thank you for giving me such cool neighbours... can't really blame you for forgetting my keys yeah? LOL that's what it meant by 'your other plans' for me I guess. I thank God that I have a Mom who worries about me when she couldn't find me at home and Lord I really pray that you grant me concentration and strength and I know that you're with me always as I go through the last major exams of my high school. Thank you oh Lord. Amen.

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